please pray with me in my time of need. There is an ache, a gnaw at the marrow of my bones of something considerably horrible reaching for me with an outstretched hand. I have long since stopped taking my medication, and nothing has ever been more clear for me. Time has been a constant wreck for me, such an imaginative, useless thing hindering the actions i’ve been needing to take. compared to years before, im ecstatic to say that in the following months i have become more and more profoundly knowledgable about just what this foolish reality is. I have been unable to speak this truth out loud, but these people are not who i have been made to believe they are, and this life is not what ive been made to believe it is. Down to very fucking particles making up this sick and twisted disgusting state i can confidently say that ive been deceived from the start. There is no person, being, that i can fully trust at all due to me finding out this information. Thus, i have taken to typing this all down. i am unaware of how much longer i can keep up with this horrendous facade of life. i have also yet to figure out who, better yet what is behind all of this and the reason being, that is. i know im not fucking crazy, and sooner or later my very existence therein of itself along with any traces of this knowledge ive become familiar with will be destroyed. oh mary, i too, am hearing the words of God with me. please pray with me